The time has come to start eliminating foods...



EoE buddies



Where to begin. Well I guess I should first apologize for taking so long to post the results of Gavin's scope. As many of you who deal with EoE know, no matter what you prepare yourself for, it never quite goes the way you think it will.

This was Gavin's second endoscopy. His first scope was last July when he was diagnosed, and this one was to determine if the swallowed steroid treatment was working. Going into the procedure, we were hoping for a clean scope, meaning no eosinophils and no inflammation or furrowing, but would have been happy with a low number. The scope experience was much more fun this time because Gavin's friends Camden and Lawson were scheduled for their scopes on the same day, and I'm friends with their mom, so the boys and I both had some support. We saw our friends, got Gavin prepped, and then I held his hands while he went to la-la land. There I was again, sitting in the consultation room waiting for news while I entrusted the nurses and doctors with my child's life. Last time, the waiting was the worst part. This time, the news was the worst part. Gavin's doctor came into the room and said that Gavin's esophagus looked like one of a newly diagnosed EoE patient. My heart sank. I knew that we would have to wait for the pathology results from the biopsies, but he was basically telling me that it looked like the steroid treatment had done nothing.



in recovery



"Don't be discouraged" were his words to me. So I tried to hang on through the next two days while I waited painfully for the numbers to come back. Two days later I spoke with the nurse and she told me that Gavin had 53 EOS (eosinophils) per HPF (high powered field). There was no miracle. The numbers only confirmed what the doctor had seen. There was very little change from his first scope, where he had 59 EOS per HPF. I didn't know exactly what this meant for treatment, but I knew the steroids alone were not doing the job. Our GI doctor was going to consult with our Allergist to discuss increasing the steroids, eliminating foods, or both. By the time I got the call from the GI, I knew what we were going to have to do. In the words of my 7 year old daughter, "Gavin's not one of the lucky EoE kids who can eat anything anymore, is he?"

So it's time to start making some tough decisions. I knew the day would come, but I really thought we had more time before we had to take foods away from Gavin. Both doctors think we should begin an elimination diet, one just proposes a more conservative plan than the other. Gavin's GI thinks it would be okay to start by removing only dairy and soy instead of all of the top 6 EoE allergens (milk, soy, eggs, wheat, peanuts/tree nuts, and seafood). We have an appointment with the allergist tomorrow, so I'll have a better idea of his suggestion, but it sounded like he typically recommends removing the top 6. We also have an appointment with the nutritionist to make sure Gavin gets what he needs as we remove foods. There are many many families out there who deal with food allergies, whose children can't eat what other kids can, and who have to tell their kids no for their own good, but this is a big first for our family, and it's a sad day.

For now I will remind myself that my child still gets to eat food. That as of today, he has no tubes going into his body to give him the nutrients he needs to grow. I will be as positive as I can for him, and remind him that these changes are to help him heal and feel better. I'm a 'glass half full' kind of gal, and I know it could be (and probably one day will be) a lot worse. But today I mourn a loss for my child as I prepare to take something away from him instead of giving to him, and I curse this disease. I will have a good cry tonight, and tomorrow I will look on the bright side.

Where I'm at...

I started this blog 6 months ago. I thought it would be a good place for me to express my feelings and possibly a theraputic way of dealing with our new normal. The thing is, I haven't written very much. I've been thinking about it lately, and trying to figure out why. I think it is because of the extremes of the past few months. Some days things are going so well that I don't really have much to write about. Gavin is eating just like he was before, and other than his new steroid 'slurry' that he takes twice a day, things really haven't changed that much. On the flip side, when it's bad (either because he's sick or I'm overwhelmed with doctor appts/medicine refills/research) there's no time for telling stories...it's just basic survival, and trying to figure out this EoE monster and how it works so we can beat it, or at least take less of a beating the next time it hits.

The extremes are tough. Some days we go about our day just like everyone else. There is lots of laughter in our house, lots of tickling, lots of sibling bickering, all of those things that make happy family memories. And then there are the days where I throw myself into learning more about this disease and can't do anything else...to the point that real life is just passing by in the meantime. I guess the bottom line is that 6 months ago I was told that my child, my baby, had an incurable illness that we will fight for the rest of his life. That moment changed everything, yet nothing changed.

This week is a very important one for our family, and not only because it is National Eosinophil Awareness Week. It is also Gavin's first endoscopy since the one last July that led to his diagnosis. Since the only way to really tell if his treatment is working is to biopsy his esophagus, this will tell us if the steroids are working enough or not. I'll try to quickly explain my understanding of how this goes. During an endoscopy, they will biopsy multiple locations in Gavin's GI tract. Each biopsy will be sent to a pathologist, who will look to see how many eosinophils (EOS) are present per high powered field (HPF). His first scope last year showed 59 EOS per HPF. If this scope shows no EOS (maybe 1 even), they would consider him 'in remission' and we would continue treatment. Anything more than 0-1 will mean some decisions on our part. A count in the single digits or even low teens might mean that we have it mostly under control, and any count above that means the steroids alone are not doing the job, and we may need to talk about taking food away. I'm trying my best to stay calm, knowing there's nothing I can do by worrying, but I have this sick feeling in my stomach that I just can't shake. At times like this, all I can do is draw on my Faith, my Family, and my Friends.

Thank you all for taking the time to read this. The blessing here is that I don't take a moment for granted. I tell my kids I love them until they don't even hear me anymore. I kiss them until they squirm away in protest. I say yes when Gavin wants to play with Legos and I'm folding laundry. And I lay there an extra few minutes after they fall asleep to soak it all in, to thank God for what we have, and to draw from those moments the strength to get through the next day.

NEAW

Today is the first day of National Eosinophil Awareness Week. My 5 year old son Gavin was diagnosed with Eosiniphilic Esophagitis (EoE) in July of last year. Gavin is one of the luckier EoE kids as he can still eat food, but that is not the case with many of these kids and adults. In an effort to raise awareness, I will be sharing information throughout the week about Eosinophilic Disorders.

 

Please take a few minutes to watch this video and come back each day this week to learn more!

 

From the bottom of my heart,

Elise